My girl is 15. I don’t really know how that happened so quickly. It seems like just yesterday we… Well, I don’t need to review all that right now- I’d end up in a puddle of tears and have to stop blogging. Anyway – I blinked and here we are.
So, we were sitting at the table the other day doing some school work – and she was finishing up her economics assignment, drawing up a draft of a budget for when she is post-college, working and living on her own. Now, let me tell you, I don’t like thinking about those things with her. Not yet! We can barely stay focused to finish Algebra 1 this year.
But, as we spoke about the future, she really got into it – planned her occupation, how she’d spend her salary, and many other things. I could tell, even once we had finished the work, she was still thinking. Not long after we had moved onto other things, she came back, loaded with questions.
How do we know I can make it to that? What about…? And you can fill in the blank – she had so many variables of what might happen and wanted to know what she was supposed to do about it?!?!
I just stared at her like a deer looking into headlights.
I wasn’t speechless because of her questions. I was speechless because I had asked God the very same thing earlier in the day – except with different variables! My girl and I are good at asking hard questions, and worrying…
My new prayer journal is pink with tiny, glittery-gold polka-dots. I had recently picked it up from Target and began writing my requests. I kid you not : That day in my journal I had written a list of circumstances and questions that I could not get my brain to comprehend. From next week, to next school year, to five years from now – I was franticly praying like it was all happening tomorrow.
Completely ironic (or maybe not) is the fact that at the very front of the journal, just days before, I had written a confession to the Lord. I wrote that I was prepared to wait on Him – and there, in scrolling cursive, I had copied some beloved Scripture.
13 I would have lost heart unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
14Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait, I say, on the Lord.
As I reread the words over and over, I was reminded to wait. One day at a time- JUST TODAY- is where I can keep my focus, and He will care for the rest. Faithfulness, day to day – patience, day to day, – and He will bring the strength and courage for what comes.
Thank you Heavenly Father, for the promises from your Word, that my girl and I can share. Help us to hear Your promises and believe! Let our hearts find strength in You! Amen.
Emily with her Challenge 1 tutor, at a formal event this weekend.
She is growing into a beautiful young woman!