She just sat in my lap, little tears dripping down her chin. Lips trembling, but nothing to say. In true Mom fashion I could not just sit – I wanted to know what was all the fuss. I asked a million questions at first. But, she wasn’t able to answer – only nod her head. I had to let her sit and be still and cry a little.
If you know me at all, you know: I’m not good at quiet. not at all. But, I’m learning. This one, my littlest – she is feisty, but careful with her words and not always quick to use them.
There we sat – while I worried and fretted over what was wrong. Turns out she was just a little jealous of my time, but she was never actually able to come out and tell me anything. (Her daddy helped me figure it out later.)
I realized later tonight she and I aren’t all that different. There have been times that my prayer time has looked a lot like this: Sitting quietly with the Lord, shedding tears, unable to articulate the burdens of my heart, all the while believing that if I just sit with Him, He’ll know my heart’s needs.
I love my sweet girl – and desperately don’t wish for her to carry on so heavy hearted. Do you know that after she sat with me, and shed her tears, it was as though her spirits were lifted and she was back to smiles again? Without her saying officially what all the trouble was about, she had let go of that heavy burden…
And this is true of how things work with my Heavenly Father -the heaviness is lifted, when I go to Him, even if I can’t voice a thing. He is able to carry it, even if I can’t fully explain it. He knows exactly what I need when I don’t comprehend it yet. His invitation is always open – I forget sometimes… But, there is so much peace and calm for my heart when I take Him up on the offer.
Matthew 11:28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
1 Peter 5: 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.