Sssssshhhhhhhh……

***I’ve been a little under the weather, so I thought I’d post this today, just to let you know I’m still alive… fresh stuff tomorrow, but for today – something from the archives.***

My baby girl is down for her nap.  It was a bit of a rough morning.  She didn’t sleep well last night because she has a bit of a cold.  That means that with my every move today there was a little whimpering shadow behind me.  Bless her heart, she NEEDS this rest.  I need it.

It was hard work, but I finally managed to get her to sleep, in her crib and sneak away on tip toe down the hall.  I’m sure I’ve appeared a bit desperate and freakish to my other children.  If they even open their mouths, I shush them…  No talking…  please…  just be quiet….  PLEASE….  If I can help my sweet little one through a bit of precious quiet time, she will feel SOOOOOOO much better.  I just know it.

Last night, I learned the same lesson for myself.

My heart has been sick. Just a bit achy, I guess.  My emotional status has been unsteady at best and I’m worn out. See, I’m working through a few decisions that Michael and I need to make.  And, while they are small, and may seem insignificant to some, they are important to me.  And the whole situation leaves me completely undone.  Usually when this happens I take it to the Lord.  I really do.  In typical female style, I tell Him every tiny detail…  there is so much to say.

But last night when I finished, I did not feel better.  In fact, after all of my talking and praying and discussion – I was where I began.  And it hurt.  I thought back over the day.  Was there something to consider or take into account that I had left out?  And He gently said to me:

“SSSSHHhhhhhhhhhh.  Let’s just be quiet…”

And in a similar fashion to the way my own little baby fights sleep, I said, “But, I…..”

“No, my sweet girl,  let’s just be quiet together.  No more talking now.  I will take care of it.  You need to rest – If you let me handle it, you will feel so much better.  I promise.”  He spoke the words so sweetly, it wasn’t hard to succumb to His bidding.  His promise was soothing like a gentle massage for my soul.

Sometimes I get so busy, holding out – talking.  And I am a talker.  I have to learn, that often my resolution, my healing comes with peace and quiet.  And, in those times, I can hear His easy whisper, that brings the answer my heart needs.

But it requires silence.

Be still, and know that I am God (from Psalm 46)

I am so thankful for a Heavenly Father who is with me, and is ready and willing to speak to my heart, just when I need it.  May I remember to quiet my own heart, so that I can hear him.   Then I will find the fresh peace he offers.

A song from our services yesterday, clearly spoke the word I needed – I was just too busy talking…

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak.

I should probably get going… I have plenty to get done before my little shadow wakes up from her nap…

(originally written October 18, 2010)