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His blessings flow

Today is Thanksgiving.  Words don’t seem to express how my heart swells… but I’m trying!

Though 2013 has been a year of trial and struggle, I continue to experience blessings that flow daily from Heaven to earth.  I’m filled with wonder at God’s grace in my life.

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My sweet husband, my healthy children, an abundance of supportive friends and family , and work that I love.

My home, filled with His provision – comfy beds, more than plenty food, lots of music and laughter.  It is a life of luxury many others do not enjoy.

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My life in Jesus Christ, along with the hope He brings ; earthly peace and the promise of eternal joy.  In lovingkindness, He continues the work in my heart, making me into His likeness.

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I do not deserve any of this goodness in my life.  In fact, in the aftermath of sickness this year, I find that all along the way it was my Savior who has been drawing me closer to Himself.  While it is hard to comprehend, I realize the truth more deeply that in His great mercy He uses all things for good.

What I do know : All goodness is ordained by His hand, because my Heavenly Father IS good.  With a grateful heart, I sing to the Lord:

Praise God from whom all blessings flow.
Praise Him all creatures here below.
Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts.
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.

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preaching and resting

I’m sitting in my big leather comfy chair next to my big girl, who is stretched out on the couch.  She’s finally succumbed to a bit of rest, her droopy eyes shutting for a nap.  It was hard for her to believe that she could need anything of the sort at 10:30 in the morning, but I finally convinced her.  “You’ll feel better once you rest,”  I told her.  It was the truth.

I try to tell my daughter the truth as often as possible. She isn’t feeling well today, and I, as her Mama who knows her well, could tell she needed to let herself sleep a bit more.   But, it was hard for her to listen and just rest.

There are times when I have to tell her exactly what I know, so our hearts can be calm.  I rehearse the truths with her as I know them.

Not long ago, I was needing peace, after listening to lies.  A bit physically ill, and emotionally down, I’d been listening to a voice who wasn’t offering truth.  “You’re no good.  No one likes you.  You have no friends. You’re a failure of a mother and you know it.  Why do you even bother? Besides, you won’t be around for long anyway – what could you possibly have to offer anyone? ”  Yep.  that’s what the voice said.  and I listened at first.

But it was my turn to turn my ear towards a voice of truth and find His rest.  because no one can always be the preacher.  and we all have times we need rest.

In those moments, just after listening to the wrong thoughts, I heard life-altering words from my Mom over the phone. As clear as a bell, I remember what she said to me: “Melody, you have to remind yourself of the truth.  Not your feelings.  Not your ideas.  The truth.”

Not far behind that conversation, I could hear words echoing in my heart from another conversation with a friend.  Significant words of truth:  “We have to preach to ourselves with Scripture and keep our thought processes in line with what God says…”

And then what I did next might sound crazy.   I got out my Bible and I didn’t just read a few verses, I preached God’s Word to myself.    Yes, I’m a lousy no-good without Jesus.  But, the bigger and better truth is:  because of Him and His work on the cross, I have hope, and peace. He is able to fill me to overflowing with joy and love, knowing His plan for me is good, because He is good.  And His words are always what I need.

In His presence I find that knotted stomachs loosen, broken hearts mend, and racing minds slow to a peaceful pace.

Maybe that’s why, in Colossians 3, Paul says this:

And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. 16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. 17 And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

And so, I’ve come to find out – sometimes, I’m the preacher – and sometimes I’m the one needing rest.  But all in all, His Word is what I need for every moment – His truth in every word and every deed will always suffice.  Participating in the beauty of His truth will surely bring His rest.

Thank you Heavenly Father, for your Son and for all of these good gifts!

amen. and amen.

a bit of history

truck stop words

There are many moments from my childhood that stand out… some that I am still learning from,  many that I seem to be reliving nowadays with the help of my children. But there is one…

It was a 76 truck stop, probably somewhere between Danville, IL and Tampa, FL where this particular memory takes place.  I was about 6 years old.  We were on vacation, my mom, dad, sister, GG and I.  After a very long and tiring day of driving we pulled off the interstate to find some dinner.

We sat down and prepared to order our dinner.  When the waitress came to the table, she worked her way around taking my order last.  To my parents’ horror I said something like this, ” I want a grilled cheese sandwich with chocolate milk… And hurry up about it!”   I was hungry after all…

I was immediately escorted to the restroom for a discussion with my mother.   I learned that my words and how I say them to people are very important.  As a follower of Christ I should be treating others with love and care, no matter what.  Needless to say, an apology to the waitress was in order.

In my head I know too well that words are permanent. They can be hurtful and there are no returns or exchanges.  Once they are out there- its done.  Wouldn’t you think by now, thirty years later that I would have this lesson down?  You know, in time to teach my own children by example.

from James 3:

“Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark.”

If only I had focused on this Scripture this morning…  before I lost my patience and moved through my house like a wildfire,  causing devastation with my tongue.   I threw many angry, impatient words around and within minutes everyone in my house was crying.  I was in a hurry after all…

from Proverbs:

“Reckless words pierce like a sword,
but the tongue of the wise brings healing.”

Its hard for me to dig down deep and think about the reality of my morning.  I am more aware than ever that the power of life and death are in the tongue.  So, there are two choices for me:  I can choose to live by the power of the Holy Spirit, speaking life-giving words that will bring peace, healing and comfort to our household and those around us.  Or I can continue on in my own flesh, using language that will lead down a path of darkness and sin.  Clearly, I really only have one choice…

I am thankful for sweet children and a Heavenly Father who have readily forgiven me.  I’m hopeful that each morning I’ll remember to make my choice – at the beginning of the day, prepared to live in the peace that only comes from Him.   Maybe I’ve finally found the way to live out that lesson I began learning so long ago at the 76 Truck Stop.

(written October 6, 2010)

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a hump-day (Wednesday survival) recipe

Tonight I had a hankering that only comes around in the fall.  And by hankering, I do mean an unavoidable craving.  So, I gave in.  That’s what I did.

And this is what happened:  An apple crisp, baked to perfection, in my Lodge cast iron skillet.  (yes, I know this isn’t my best photo ever – we were in a hurry to eat!)

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Because it is hump-day – and there are weeks where we all need a little shove in the right direction to help us over that hump known as “Wednesday.” – I thought I’d share what I created.

Skillet Apple Crisp

Ingredients: 2 sticks of cold butter, 6-7 apples (maybe 8), 4 tbsp of white sugar, 2 tbsp of cinnamon, a little less than a cup of oatmeal, a little less than a cup of flour, a cup of brown sugar.

Instructions: Peel and core the apples, slicing and cutting them into bite-sized chunks –  and then toss with the white sugar and a bit of the cinnamon (maybe a tsp or two).  In the meantime, put one stick of butter in the skillet and put the pan into your oven as it preheats to 350. (I used a 12 inch skillet, but you could also use a pie plate, or add another apple or two and use a 9×13 pan.)  While the butter is melting and the oven preheats, cut  the other stick of cold butter into the rest of the cinnamon, brown sugar, oatmeal and flour.  Continue to cut the butter in until it is evenly incorporated.   When the oven has preheated, pull the skillet out of the oven.  Take a moment to move the pan from side to side and be sure the butter has coated the bottom of the pan well.  Place the apples on the bottom of the skillet and then top with the butter/sugar/oatmeal crumbly topping.  Bake in the oven for 40 minutes or until the topping is brown and the apples are bubbling up around the edges.

Serve the crisp with vanilla ice-cream, or possibly fresh whipped cream.  The aroma that will happen as it bakes should be wonderful enough to revive you.

Survival of another week:  accomplished.

Have a fabulous Wednesday!

md

PS: this recipe was compiled from several different recipes on Allrecipes.com.

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on the way to friendship…

I’m home, sitting on my couch with my laptop, after a lovely weekend retreat with the ladies of Brainerd Presbyterian.  Last year I went,  barely knowing their names – some of them absolute strangers.   This year, I knew everyone, some of them close-like-a-sister friends.

It happened while I wasn’t looking.    Life passes by, just like that, in the smallest, terribly usual moments.

All of the little things slipped by unnoticed, I guess – choir rehearsals, chats in the hallway at church,  prayer requests shared, conversations filled with concern, laughs and silliness, Wednesday night suppers,  I could go on and on.

But, here we are a year later : I’ve been on the road, and I didn’t even see it, until we were on the way to the retreat.   I found myself beyond excited to spend time within a community of treasured friendship.

Our time together was a gracious gift from the Heavenly Father.  I am so grateful that he set my feet on this road of life, on a journey of friendship.

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fellowship: def.- companionship, company;  a community of interest, activity, feeling or experience.  a company of equals or friends; the quality or state of being comradely.

I had the unique and enviable opportunity to attend a women’s retreat with the ladies of Brainerd Presbyterian Church this past weekend.   Some had told me it was special, but I didn’t know.  Not without the experience.

Would you believe me if I told you I watched women from ages 18-80 having real fellowship?  No cattiness, no cliquish behavior…  just true kindness and encouragement.  Oh- there was teasing and joking and mischief, too.  But, these women have taken care to do something really important.  They are caring for one another, young and old alike – in a “company of equals.”   Beyond their personal interests or  experiences, they are following one commandment very well.

“Love one another.”

It sounds simple in theory, but to do it…  as females… it is much harder.

I am so thankful the Lord allowed me to have such an amazing time of fellowship with some pretty incredible women this weekend.  I’ve tried to use words to describe it.  We hiked, we shopped, we ate, we studied God’s Word…  but this is what it looked like:

The cabin.

the view.

the peace and quiet.

the snacks. (no one was going hungry on this retreat.)

the early morning coffee

the bird’s-eye view

the laughter

the knitters. (and there were quite a few)

the hikers.

the nature lovers.

the hikers who went further…

the beauty.

the friendships, old and new

the nurturing from God’s Word

the dinner preparation, by mother and daughter.

the encouragement

the caring

the perfect ending, to an unforgettable weekend.

Thank you to all of my new friends at BPC. I am so blessed by this treasure you so graciously shared with me.  My heart is grateful.

Originally written November 2012

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jubilee

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I stood opposite the gentleman as he hammered and tapped.  Gently, firmly, carefully he maneuvered the piece of silver.  Masterfully he worked it into place.  And I gazed from the other side of the table.

Of all the treasures to be sought or found, on Sunday, at Kettner’s Mill, I had come across something precious.  “It’s from 1953, a silver flat wear pattern called Jubilee.” he informed me.    He had expertly formed the old teaspoon into a lovely ring, and it fits my right hand’s ring finger just perfectly.

I’ve been tossing around the meaning of “Jubilee” in my mind, considering its most general meaning and its meaning in the Old Testament too.  In normal, everyday English it means to celebrate a special anniversary or occasion.  In Scripture it means to rejoice and celebrate  restoration and freedom.  The book of Leviticus lays out particulars of how the Israelites were supposed to acknowledge the year of jubilee.

Considering my past year, I’ve been wondering about this business of Jubilee.  This journey I’ve been on,  thousands of emotional miles, all in a matter of months, has permanently altered me.  I’ve been examining some of the monumental moments.  Just like the craftsman with my ring, The Heavenly Father has been forming me, coaxing me into the exact shape of who He wants me to be.  Sometimes it has been a light tap, other times a firm knock – but He is the one responsible for changing my very being.  All with a view of restoration, and freedom, I’m renewed to be more like Him, and to genuinely reflect His glory.

So, I’m wearing my Jubilee ring.  And with a great deal of affection and gratefulness, I might add.   Every time I notice that ring on my finger, I have cause to rejoice.  Rejoice for this life that He has given me, for His redeeming work in my heart, and for every promise He has made to me – because every promise He has made is true.   It is a beautiful time of jubilee in my heart, and He is the one who has made it so.

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Mrs. Jones

It seems like just a short while ago that we were having Sunday dinner at her dining room table.  Mrs. Jones, a most capable and gracious hostess, had invited us over for lunch for the first time.  My Mom, Dad, my sister Marilyn and I had no idea just what kind of delightful meal was in store.

But we quickly found out that her gift for hospitality was extraordinary.  Her home was the closest thing to a Southern Living cover photo.  The food that came from her kitchen was absolutely divine.  And her living room exuded comfort and beauty, the likes of which I had never seen.

Before or since I have never met someone with the gift of welcoming people to their home, not like Mrs. Jones.  She was a role model of grace and kindness to all who came through her front door.

At 16, I didn’t know what to think.  During those first moments in her home, I didn’t know her well and it was a bit overwhelming.   Well, there we sat at the table, that Sunday afternoon, she served the food and asked my dad to say the blessing.  As we quieted our hearts, and the room fell silent for dad’s prayer, there was a rumbling.  It was a gurgling not unlike someone’s stomach makes when they are hungry.

It grew louder and louder as Dad prayed.  And me, my shoulders began to shake violently, trying not giggle.  What would our sophisticated hostess think of a teenage girl laughing during a prayer?  My efforts spread to my sister, and as my Dad finished the blessing, we could not help it and burst into peels of loud laughter.

Both of us girls were sure it was my Mom’s stomach growling that we had heard…  and although we could barely say it for all our giggling, Mrs. Jones began to laugh as well, while my Mom denied it completely.  When we all caught our breath, Mrs. Jones confirmed that indeed it was the coffee pot brewing that had made the loud groaning, not my Mom.

Every time we had a meal at her home we recounted that first Sunday dinner with fondness.

The whole experience brought our relationship with Mrs. Betty Jones into quite an honest and authentic place.   Her efforts and her desires to serve people with grace and kindness and make every visitor at home were engrained in my heart and mind.  I have never met another like her, and I don’t suppose I ever will.

For a wedding gift,  Betty Jones sent me one of her cups and saucers from her best set of china.  How I will treasure that always as a reminder of what hospitality, servanthood and humor truly is.

Mrs. Jones went to be with Jesus a few days ago.   I’m so grateful for the hope of Heaven – for the knowledge that I will see her again and we will share in that same sweet laughter together.

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tune my heart…

Every Columbus Day, which also happens to be Canadian Thanksgiving, my family and I begin a season of giving thanks.  We celebrate in a lot of different ways;  several of our traditions we have been doing since Emily was tiny.

But, no matter how we choose to act out our thanks, it seems to bring our hearts together, singing songs of His goodness.

Tonight, as I was sorting thru a few of my photos, I realized it has been a while since I’ve recited my own heart’s gratefulness.  So,  I thought I’d rehearse some of my best blessings, here…  DSC_0141

Another year of life to celebrate, more meaningful to me than years passed…

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Anniversary tulips from the man who knows and loves me well…

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Exploration and laughter with cousins, sometimes in tents

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Little fingers and hearts and minds discovering God’s world.

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Painting buddies
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Good friends worthy of adventure

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Thank you, LORD!!!

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light, at the end of the tunnel

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Standing at my kitchen sink this evening there seemed to be a warm glow in my back yard.  Dusk was settling in. But, while I washed dishes I could enjoy seeing Michael working, because there was light coming from inside his shop.

Lights.  We’ve got electricity.  and its a big deal.

Why does it seem so monumental?  Well, I’ll tell you.

A year and a half ago, we made some decisions.  Among them was the choice to build Michael’s workshop.  Lots of time and money later we aren’t quite finished.  The outside is close, and the inside finishes will hopefully be completed this winter.

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He has persevered in relentless pursuit of this calling.  and I am a witness to his unwavering commitment.  This continues to be a faith endeavor that requires significant action.  Sometimes it is hard.  terribly hard.  And other times it comes as naturally as, well, flipping on a lightswitch .

But, power in the shop is confirmation : we are almost there!

And more importantly it is proof, one more time that God makes good on His Word ; If He begins it, He finishes it.  If He requires it, He gives the necessary strength.  Tonight these promises have been proven to me again, simply because He provided the light and shined the truth into my heart.

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