I stared at my computer. In a show down with an unacceptable email I had received, I squinted my eyes and glared at the screen. Slamming my laptop shut, I stormed away. I was angry. No, infuriated.
In a few minutes, I came back and opened the computer again. Nope. still mad. And I walked away again.
I tried to sleep on it.
The next morning, I was still irritated when I tried to think through the situation. You know that phrase, “things will look better in the morning?” Yeah, that isn’t always true. A friend had let me down. BAM. no explanation. no understanding. So, there I was high and dry with no comfort and no immediate solution.
When Michael came home from work I tried to discuss it with him, but I didn’t find him as sympathetic as I’d hoped. humph.
So, I went to my room to pout and pray about it. Pouring my frustrated little heart out, so let down and frazzled by it all, I found myself wanting the Savior of the world to snatch away any blessings he may have given this friend… As my prayer turned into more and more of a rant, I’m pretty sure I heard Him say quietly,
“Sometimes you let me down…”
oh. shoot.
“And I still forgive you…”
As I sat on my bed I tried my best to let these thoughts settle down deep in my heart.
What is the real truth? The only One who has the right to call out sin, and bad decisions and sinful actions or in-action, is the truly perfect and sinless Jesus Christ. And what do I know of my relationship with Him? He does not point out my mistakes and errors and sin with condemnation or anger. Although His anger would be justified after the sacrifice He has made.
No, in mercy He reaches towards me with love ; with a gentle hand He chastises me and He draws my heart to repentance. And He does this, He forgives, so that as I know forgiveness I also can forgive others.
Heavenly Father, Thank you for loving me and forgiving me no matter how many times I let you down. Help me to give that same loving forgiveness to others with a tender heart. amen.
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