That’s what he said to me, sitting there on the couch at church. He could not remember. Last week he had a good time at his class at church. And he came out all smiles, loved it, couldn’t wait to go back.
Isaac, my sweet boy, who is six, but seems like he was born just yesterday, has been struggling with a bit of anxiety. He just doesn’t want to cross that threshold and go into his class some weeks.
Why? The answer has been eluding us as parents. Regardless, on the weeks of struggle, he can not seem to recall the glorious moments from the week before, those times where he was triumphant and enjoyed the same class.
There’s one thing I do know, that I realized as we left church tonight.
I tend to be just like my dear boy. I’m just as forgetful. Recently, I’ve found myself in a few struggles of my own, where I need to rely on my Heavenly Father from week to week. And in typical, human fashion, not unlike the Israelites who never could remember the victories the Lord had given them, I find myself calling out to Him, “I CAN’T REMEMBER!”
Did He help me last week, with this same fear? Did He give me strength and ability to accomplish tasks for which I feel terribly inadequate? Did He keep me in the palm of His hand, secure in the knowledge of His calling on my life?
Yes. Yes. Yes.
And still, when I find myself staring down the next challenge, my heart and mind are wiped clear of all memory, and I find myself unable to recall the victories. Pure terror streaks through my soul and I beg for Him to relieve me of the struggle.
Oh me, with so little faith!
But, He tenderly declines. Instead He reminds me, since I’ve forgotten. He was there. He was my strength, my full portion, my deliverer, my stop-gap measure. He was all that I needed – and then some. Everything that I need, He is. All that He is, I need. Those are promises from His word that I can rely on… every day. Without exception.
Heavenly Father, Help me to remember I can do all things in and thru You. Let me live with this knowledge, as an example to all those around me who are forgetful too. And please, give me the wisdom to help my sweet boy understand this too. amen.
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