Psalm 139- because I love this chapter…

(these are my own thoughts from Psalm 139… )

You can see my heart, Lord and you know me.

You know when I get out of bed in the morning, and you can see what kind of day this is going to be for me.

You know when I have lots to do – if there’s more laundry than I can get done, too many errands to run – and if I’ve been up all night with Mackenzie.  You are aware of it all.

Long before I say or do something (or write something) – You know about it.  Lord, you are ahead of me, paving the way – and your hand is on me, even today.

This knowledge is unbelievable – I can hardly contain myself .  I am overjoyed to know that You are so involved in my life.  But – at the same time I can barely understand it- is it possible that the creator of the Universe is so present?

Its true – I can’t go anywhere without you.  If I have to drive up Signal Mountain, you’re there.  If I stay home buried in house work – you’re here too.  If I have an incredible day, where I feel like I’m soaring high – You are there…  No matter where I am, or what I have to do – You are with me, hovering near, holding me close, guiding me with your own gentle hand.

If I have a day that is dark with confusion and dread – You alone are my light, shining hope and comfort into the night of my heart.

You created me, from the very beginning, and You designed every part of me.  This deserves more praise than I can possibly give You.  Each little detail, You planned and brought into being.  Not one inch of my history, not one bit of who I am is a surprise or secret to You.  This is absolutely beyond incredible.  amazing.  stunning.

Even when I am in the middle of conflict, I know that You will take care of it.  No matter how many wars between evil and good seem to take over this world, even when terrible men assault You and your name – I know You are in control.  I do not need to fear.

Lord, search me today.  Test my heart and my thoughts.  If I’m not walking in the way that You have for me, change my path.  Lead me to You.

amen and amen.

(written November 2010)