Here is a Scripture that I learned when I was a child. I’ve known these words for close to 30 years:
from Proverbs 3:
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.
Today I’ve been struggling to trust. Its over something remarkably small. Tomorrow my sweet husband is probably going to have a small procedure done on his hand to remove a piece of glass that was left behind after a car accident that happened to us 10 years ago now.
That means that all day today I have made it my responsibility to obsess about every possible thing that could go wrong. After all, what in the world would we do if….?
Because he has guitar playing, guitar making hands. Hands that enjoy working outside. Hands that hold our children. Hands that hold mine. Hands that we all NEED.
My breath catches in my throat, I can’t swallow, and tears burn…
But, it was while I had a moment alone this evening after a day of self imposed worry, I heard Him say to me, “Trust.” And with that one word, the Scripture above posed front and center in my mind. I whispered the words out loud, “Trust in the Lord with ALL…” and I stopped short.
ALL.
not most.
not some.
ALL.
“Oh Heavenly Father, why is this so hard? and it isn’t even my hand…”
and He said, again, “Trust.”
Because He is working in all of it, every bit and piece of my life. Whether it is pain or healing, glory or despair- He is using it all. And it is His plan that is best, not mine. I just wish He wouldn’t hit so close to home. But, He knows just how to get right to the heart of the matter. Lipservice and head knowledge mean absolutely nothing if I don’t fully trust Him – with ALL of my heart.
Tomorrow brings a new journey of trust… Thank you Heavenly Father for walking this road with me, and for being a God that I can fully trust with my whole heart. amen.
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