Last night was a bit rough… I was awake for a long time thinking. Its a woman’s responsibility to solve the world’s problems at 2 o’clock in the morning. I was not successful.
A lot of times I write and blog at night. The Lord speaks a little clearer, enhances my creativity and gives me boldness at that time of evening. But last night I ignored Him. He gave me a pretty clear idea and I stayed in bed. I was busy problem solving.
I apologize.
The reason I’m apologizing is that now, this morning, I have an urge to write on the topic and I can’t remember what it was. I clearly remember thinking it wasn’t something I should write. Usually, that means its something I don’t want to divulge to everyone, even though its what He is asking me to do. I was not obedient last night ; I let the moment pass.
What if I, in my delinquent behavior, am missing out on something life changing? What if you are?
Most often, I try to write about how the Gospel is at work in my heart – and that requires honesty combined with obedience. But this blog is not the only place I should be obediently sharing the gospel. God asks me to share the gospel with everyone around me. I am far less obedient in this capacity…
What if those around me are missing out on something life changing because of my indifference? What if I am? These are all terribly difficult questions and I don’t like them at all. I have completely stepped outside of my comfort zone here.
Back to the reality of the Gospel! Romans 8:1-2 confirms, “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.” Hallelujah! There is forgiveness for my indiscretion. And freedom to make a fresh start at obedience.
Someday I want this to be said of me : that my life shone so bright with the light of the gospel that others came to know Him and praised God because of it! I don’t want to make any more apologies!
From God’s Word: (Paul writing to the Corinthians)
2Corinthians 9:12-13
12 This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of the Lord’s people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. 13 Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, others will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else.
Heavenly Father, Give me a willing and obedient heart, no matter what the circumstances are, so that others will understand and know your love and forgiveness. By your power let me live a life of obedience, with fewer apologies! And someday, when I mess up again (because its bound to happen) let me feel the freedom of your forgiveness and the desire to start anew! amen
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